Wednesday, November 17, 2010
I'm Not Fighting Anymore . I Surrender .
I always root for the underdog .
Shit , in most cases I AM the underdog .
The one who has unpopular views ;
The most hated ;
The different one ;
The one who does't give 2 fucks about the "in" crowd .
The Underdog has its positives
For example . . . nobody is watching you .
Nobody cares about you .
Nobody knows you .
The Underdog also has its negatives.
For example . . . nobody is watching you .
Nobody cares about you .
Nobody knows you .
The Underdog is the girl who smokes before class . .
The girl who is afraid to love because it always
ends in misunderstanding .
The one who never wins the game of " popularity ."
The girl who hides behind the bitch in herself
just to make it through the day .
But ask any Underdog this question " are you happy ? "
and she'll say yes . . . because as confusing as it may
seem , the underdog always comes out on top ....
I'm talkin - Doctors , Lawyers , Owners , CEOs of shit .
This Underdog is well on her way to success WITHOUT
the popularity vote . . fuck the " traditional " way .
My way is better .
ALWAYS . . . root for the underdog .
Sunday, August 15, 2010
Turtle .
She sat in her room in the corner of apartment number 12
on the 13th floor of 13th street apartments with the widows open ,
not because she was hot , but because she
was smoking . . .
she had stared at his pictures for hours
and hours . . . flipping through pages in
her mind . . . pages filled with the images
of their love . . . back when they were happy .
Every time she smiled , he'd whistle . . her
bright eyes opened more and more each time
she heard that little whistle and saw that
cheeky , sly little grin . . . if you
wanna call it a grin .
but now here eyes were bloodshot .
was it the crying ? or was it the high ?
" it was both ." she decided .
" Mary Jane would never leave me. " she
thought aloud . . . all of a sudden
she closed her eyes and she saw him . . .
he was standing at the end of the
hall where she met him . . . hat covering
most of his face . . he looked , well sad .
alone . . a loner . a sad loner .
she smiled at him . all of a sudden
he had this urge to whistle . . . her
smile did it to him . .
as she sat in her room , tears streaming
down her face . . she heard it . . loud and clear
a high pitched , singy songy little toon . . .
like the tinkle of the Salvation Army Santa's bell . .
standing at the end of the hall . . where she met him
the sounds came closer , clearer even . .
she ran to the window where she could her it best . .
she looked out . . she saw him . . .
she smiled . . . (and she's sure she heard him whistle)
so she jumped .
she waited for him to catch her down at the
bottom of her 13 story apartment building , but
she met nothing but cold concrete .
hours earlier , " he " had been struck and killed
by an oncoming vehicle while crossing 13th street . .
to get to the corner where
13th street apartments stood . he was looking for
apartment number 12.
he was coming to tell her he couldn't
stop seeing her smile . . . even when he closed
his eyes . . he had come to tell her he loved her .
Wednesday, June 16, 2010
this isn't my job . im not getting paid for this .
Dear Same-Old ,
I have a question . . . no , more like a demand .
lay off .
go die .
commit suicide .
That " jank " , that " bootycall " that " chick on the side " your bragging
about ? you see ? she's my world . . . she's my best friend . she'd do ANYTHING
for me and I'd do the same for her . . . but what i WON'T do is your
goddamn motherFUCKING job .
Stop lying to her , stop setting her up . . . stop building things up just to break her down . I can't . . . no . . i WON'T stand for it anymore . . If you're a player , thats fine , just don't do it on my time . Because , you see , when you DON'T text her or you DON'T call her . . . I GET THE MOTHERFUCKING CALL ! her tears , her screams her cries they fall on ME .
Not to mention my own heartbreak . . . but NOW , i have to fix YOUR goddamn mistake . . .
When I see her cry , I start to imagine all of the things I want to do to you.
should i start by cutting you're dick off ?
no , how about your tongue so you can't sling that BULLSHIT anymore . . .
then , i'd stab you in YOUR heart so you MIGHT understand how she feels .
Dear Same-Old .
I can handle mine , I'm a tough bitch , been through it all , but what i WILL NOT
stand for is you killing my friend .
Sincerely,
The MadameAssassin
Thursday, May 20, 2010
Religious Much ?
No . I'm not a Christian . I don't believe in God , Jesus or the Bible . This does not make me an Atheist . I do believe in a higher being , I just agree with the teachings of another religion . " Why " , you ask ? There are several reasons . For one , the most judgmental and hateful , spiteful people I have ever met happened to be hard core Christians . They based their hate and rejection on scriptures and quotes they got from a book they don't even know who wrote . They judge others and say they are " hell bound " for exercising their right to do as they damn well please . How are you going to consider being gay a sin , yet make up excuses as to why a man can beat on his wife ? Just because you're " saved " doesn't make you better than anyone else .
what am I ?
this is the first time ive decided to reveal my religion . Not because im afraid or embarrassed , i just feel its a touchy subject . buuuuuttt i am a BUDDHIST . there . now you know .
Sunday, May 16, 2010
Weeds.
I hate men . No , not really . I just hate most of them . . . maybe a good 80% I mean they smile , they say all the right things , they make you feel special . . . . they just . . well , charm the dog shit out of you .
Oh . and im harrddd to get to . I can tell in an instant if Im attracted or if I never have to see speak or hear from you again .
Walls . Im a huge fan of those . I build mine extremely high . I mean , dude , you'd have to get like 6 ladders just to get over it , or you could just knock it down . . . or If I like you enough , Ill let it down . . . but lately , i feel like my wall has been attacked , ambushed , bombed . . . bleh .
Men are weeds . I am a flower . I can't grow because these men keep inhibiting my progress . I need the right man to come and pick them .
I have a question . How do you all sleep at night ? like . . . how do you FUCK a girl over and then sleep at night ? Like how do you use her , lie to her and then expect her to be your friend ? Are you an idiot ?
AND THEN .
you have the NERVE to call me bitter . . . little boy . . . please . Go be up new chick's ass and leave me alone . Don't ask to be my friend , nd nah , dude . we aint " cool " . Truth is ? I probably wouldn't care if i EVER hear from you again . #JadeLynnShrug .
- Signed ,
The Flower .
Thursday, May 13, 2010
Make Up Freak . ¬_¬
Wednesday, May 12, 2010
Why I Say What I Say . . . .
ive always been taught to speak my mind , so thats what i decide to do .
i don't hesitate because if i do , chances are , ill change my mind .
The saying is simple " treat others how you want to be treated . " To me , this means
if someone gets on my bad side more than once , there they shall stay . Im all
for second chances , but after that , we will have nothing but watered down ,
impersonal , strained conversations . " Lynn , why are you so mean/bitter/grumpy/rude? "
If i had a dollar for every time i was asked this , paying for school would be
no problem . The truth is , im not any of the above . . . im just simply tired . I have no room left to trust , I have no heart , I have no feelings . I never wanted to end up this way at such a young age , but im here . Things could just up and change tomorrow , nobody knows , but in the mean time , Ill continue to be a bitch and not take a word that is said to me too seriously . hell , this works for me . Im not a negative person , im actually very peaceful . i have buddha all over my room . lol .its just that people tend to take advantage of that , and now i have no choice but to be . . . well . . . a BITCH .
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