Why I Say What I Say . . . .

ive always been taught to speak my mind , so thats what i decide to do .
i don't hesitate because if i do , chances are , ill change my mind .
The saying is simple " treat others how you want to be treated . " To me , this means
if someone gets on my bad side more than once , there they shall stay . Im all
for second chances , but after that , we will have nothing but watered down ,
impersonal , strained conversations . " Lynn , why are you so mean/bitter/grumpy/rude? "
If i had a dollar for every time i was asked this , paying for school would be
no problem . The truth is , im not any of the above . . . im just simply tired . I have no room left to trust , I have no heart , I have no feelings . I never wanted to end up this way at such a young age , but im here . Things could just up and change tomorrow , nobody knows , but in the mean time , Ill continue to be a bitch and not take a word that is said to me too seriously . hell , this works for me . Im not a negative person , im actually very peaceful . i have buddha all over my room . lol .its just that people tend to take advantage of that , and now i have no choice but to be . . . well . . . a BITCH .